say what you need to say

alright, while i'm still at the beginning of this part of the journey, i'm making an executive decision amongst all the voices and suggestions in my head, to write "wholly" in my blog rather than just informationally. by "wholly" i don't mean that i'll write about every detail of every detail, and the thoughts i do write may seem incomplete, but i want to use this blog as an outlet for whatever area within me that needs it. i also want to use it as an honest venue of communication with everyone who's wondering about this journey of mine.

john mayer's song, say, has been playing in the back of my head since the first time i heard it. and it's not playing as background music...it's encouraging me, urging me, sometimes it even seems to be aggressively pushing me to "say what (i) need to say". but i can't...can't find words right now. so i guess i want this blog to be more of a pledge to say what i need to say, as it comes.

take all of your wasted honor
every little past frustration
take all of your so-called problems
better put 'em in quotations

say what you need to say (x8)

walking like a one-man army
fighting with shadows in your head
living out the same old moment
knowing you'd be better off instead
if you could only

say what you need to say (x8)

have no fear for giving in
have no fear for giving over
you better know that in the end
it's better to say too much
than never to say what you need to say again

even if your hands are shaking
and your faith is broken
even as the eyes are closing
do it with a heart wide open

say what you need to say (x24)